This weekend was so DEPRESSINGadtomorrow can’t get here fast enough! Please bring us pretty days April!
I will say Little Miss Lola and I started our weekend the best way we knew how!
Together!!
…and wasn’t it sweet of my girl to host a tea party BEFORE she even ate breakfast for her mommy!
Ms Brittany was off Friday to go to a bachelorette party so we gladly took (yet another) vacation day to be home with the girl!
Then we got pretty to meet daddy for lunch and take Lola for a visit to my elementary school to meet the counselors and principal!
Lola loved them and made herself quite at home- imagine that i know!
I was actually going to tell them some pretty (confidential-oops) and bitter sweet information… Whew…...so after hearing my agency would no longer allow us, therapist, to be in the school system it affirmed my decision that this summer will be my time to leave. 
It will certainly be a bittersweet transition as these kiddos have been my life, their well being has often been my last thought before going to bed and their hopes have been my dreams…
I have yet again learned so much from them and I will never doubt children's ability to internalize others struggles, find ways to handle anxiety when they have no idea what anxiety is, and be resilient in the most enduring of scenarios.
They are amazing and they are certainly going to be missed by me! I can now say that I have had “one” of my dream jobs and been blessed to live it for 2 years now! I have absolutely loved every minute of it and am so terribly sad and unhappy that the state will no longer fund us to be in the schools as most of the children who need therapy the most are not the ones with supportive stay at home moms who pick them up from school and drive them to a therapy office. It is so unfortunate but as long as you work for someone else you don’t get to make the rules!
For now, I am SO excited that I will be staying home this summer with my girl to sit for my LCSW and start a private practice….
Um yeah, OMG. To say I am overwhelmed, scared out of my mind and have not a clue what I am doing is an understatement to say the least.
All while having tea parties with this girl.
So yes, to be leaving a job there is quite a bit on my plate. Shocker. I plan to finish out the month to get the kids through the school year and then take a real brake since we will be going on VACATION (woohoo) and then get back to business! My own business!
Geez that seems crazy! The best part and most important part in making all of these decisions was my own baby girl! I had always wanted to “keep my foot in the door” after having kids but the past few months i think I have had both feet and hands in the door! I’m eager and excited to get back to life with my girl! Oh how I miss our week days together!
Cheers to spending more days with my girl!!
..and her girlfriend.
And can I tell you on another note that lately, my girlfriend is becoming more and more of a ….. girlfriend. 
She does her “grunting” and pointing every morning now at my jewelry board until I get down the necklaces for her that she wants to wear! I guess she had to look pretty for her lunch (and dinner) date with daddy on Friday! 
Too much? No way Lola, you got this! 
Lola fell asleep (again) on the way to meet daddy for lunch so I didn’t even try putting her down for her afternoon nap- that was frustration just waiting to happen!
Instead daddy came home and swooped us up to go have dinner with Kayla and Lance!
Can you believe he had to ask a million questions about our outfit? I mean what’s confusing about this and what’s not to love?
You look good girl, you look good! 
Saturday was SO cold and I was SO mad! We had two Easter Egg hunts we had planned to go to and we didn’t make it to either because I refused to put the girl outside in that weather!
We did love that it gave us a reason to wear our sweet hand made sweater from Aunt Diane! 
Saturday was our semi annual cuss Verizon out days where we some how left “happier”" than when we came” which Lou swore was impossible when dealing with those people- no worries. We checked the bill and everything they promised us was a lie, the bill is wrong and two things on out “contract” are incorrect!
Ha we knew we couldn’t really leave their happy right!?!
I will say it was AMAZING entertainment for Lola and EVERYONE their lived her! They all knew her name by the time we left and referenced her as “world’s cutest toddler ever” which i had my own problems with, i mean cute, yes but isn’t she a baby still!? 
Sunday was the most exciting day ever for Lola and I!
We got to meet baby Ethan and visit with Mrs. Charisa!!!
Lola was absolutely fascinated by the baby, im not quite sure though if she knew he was a baby (she thinks babies are 5 year old kids).. so this was new to her. 
Not that this man is tiny or anything! Lol he weighs 4 pounds less than Lola and is only 10 weeks old!! Him and Lola were also wearing the same size that day…. 6 months!
Crazy right, he is full of love and such a good baby! Mrs. Charisa is also the best mommy ever! We knew she would be, she is so kind and caring and cautious! Oh and of course she was so excited to see Lola! There will always be a special place in Lola’s heart for Mrs. Charisa I do believe and of course mine! There is just something about another kind person to care for the most important person in the world to you that you will always cherish about them! 
I thought it was so “interesting” that when I held baby Ethan in my lap Lola immediately came over to me to sit in my lap. The ONLY time she does this is when we read to her!
We loved him but he wasn’t so fond of us! He loves his mama, can you blame him! 
Lola was also trying to crawl into his car seat and was so sad to see him go! 
Charisa is also using the Moms on Call practice and is LOVING it! He seems to be doing really well with it and is already taking 2 hour naps during the day in his swaddle and is sleeping 8 hours at night- in his crib! Go mama go! You got this!
Lola, Lou and I walked them out and suddenly realized how much we have and still do baby Lola…. Charisa and her sister put him in the car and drove away. Both in the front seats of the car.
Ok So apparently I was that crazy. I literally thought she would choke and die if she sat in the back alone.
No wonder people made fun of Lou and I at 11 months old and still sitting in the back with her! The only thing that made me quit is it literally became more of a problem about 12 months! If she can see me she gets mad and wants to sit with me- I have to hide in the front! Lol
Monday came and hit us hard! It’s m longest day away from the girl (9 hours) and I couldn’t help to think of how many Mondays I have left before our Mondays turn into just another day of being together!
Coming home to this made our reunion that much sweeter!
We got a box of Easter goodies from Lola’s great Grama, Aunt Doreen and cousin Jessica! 
We loved our tutu’s, bunny and bunny ears and snacks! 
Best of all the GRASS!!! 
We also got this sweet hat from Aunt Diane and a sweet card from Auntie Amara! 
Are we spoiled or what!! Thank you for all of our Lola Easter love everyone!
Try not to be shocked but for the first time in I can’t even remember when I came home and “threw together” a pinterst baked ziti recipe! We weren’t big fans but we’re trying to eat at home more to budget in my soon to be jobless status and Italy…. in the same month! AHHHH! 
I know Lola, mommy’s trying and it would help if you would pretend to like it the way daddy does… it’s cheese and noodles how can you go wrong! ? 
Don’t you love how she claps and is proud of herself although she didn’t eat a bite! 
No appetite for noodles but yes to out toes!! 
Oh this girl! What a mess she is and what a light she is to come home to! She keeps us laughing and loving and we love her oh so much for that! We’re excited to visit the Easter bunny (again) this week and see if he comes to out house to visit us!!
Happy April Fools day tomorrow!!
